Why do i feel this way? i'm 23 years old nearly 24 my husband is 40 i think he dont love me i married him?

nealrly 8 years ago and i feel sooo unloved its unreal i try and instigate a cuddle he pushes me away and i try and instigate ..he pushes me away, he has never taken me for a meal never bought me flowers i am always sendin him flowers to work...etc i am not allowed out with friends he says i am aving an affair if i do he dont go out though i work from home on nights 6 days a week he goes out to work the only time i go out is to take our daughter to and from school...or if i go to my mothers...i need to feel loved and romance and i get none from him i think he havin an affair but when i say i will leave he says dont be silly and begs me stay..and crys i hate my life i am soo ready do end it all and i am not scared why do i feel like this? and the worse bit is he cant see the hurt in my eyes....i get told that i very pretty why does he do this to me refuse me affection? why?